"I didn't think being HA would be so difficult. I knew that I would have to evict someone and it would suck, but holy frick frack....people take this game so seriously. I mean, I never watched the first season so I don't know the impact it had. And I didn't come here for fame or to be an entertainer. I just wanted to try and win cash, make friends and...possibly find myself? I desperately just want to grow as a person and move out."
Deressa starts tearing up.
"I love my sister, Lara, but sometimes I feel like she resents me. I've always felt like the outsider at home, because I'm the bastard child. It never became easier as we grew up, just more difficult and awkward. I feel like such a burden every day, even though I kept telling myself that Lara is just moody and she does love me back. I don't know.. I just wanted to fix that uncertainty by coming here."
She takes a minute to restore her composure.
"But even with all of that....if I happen to fail, I'll accept it and find other ways to move out. I'm not saying I'm different in that regard, but that I understand why this game might mean more to some than others. We all have baggage & some of us have more difficulty carrying it.
That's why I'll probs leave the winnings to my squad from this point on.
Being HA is just too much for your girl."
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Subject: The Pressure 
Sat Jul 29, 2017 11:30 am
