Scratch That...

Subject: Scratch That... Tue Aug 29, 2017 10:31 pm

"Well, I think I kinda just blew it. I practically told Nisha to shove her alliance up her ass. And while I know this is just a game and I shouldn't be upset since I was lying to her about Manda or that I shouldn't regret doing that since I'm staying true to Manda and I should just deal with the consequences, yadda yadda yaddaaaaa....I can't help but feel awful...." She sighs.
"I've experienced this multiple times in highschool. People say they're your friends, but then they keep stuff from you even while you're loyal to the max. I know in this particular case I was not loyal at all to Nisha, but there were times where I'd literally do anything for my friends and in return I got ridiculed and tossed aside." She places her hand on her forehead and pauses for a while.
"I just couldn't let that happen again, ya know? And my gut was telling me Nisha wanted nothing to do with me. That little slip up felt like the start of of a huge series of disappointments. I've been through it too many times. I was supposed to be the senior prom queen. My mom couldn't afford a nice dress for me, so I worked all summer to save up enough. My campaigning was going GREAT and then...." She pauses. "Whoop whoop guess who slept with the Math teacher! Yup, Deressa Hendrix! She's a whore, don't vote for her!" While saying that Deressa does a derpy facial expression and waves her arms around. She stops.
"It was so not fair....I hate to admit this on live TV, but I'm a virgin. I never did stuff with that teacher. I didn't win 'cause my fake friends were petty and an innocent man had to be questioned by the police." She holds back her tears.
"What I'm trying to say here is that...while I love making friends and growing closer to people, often I'd just back off. I just need constant reassurance that I matter! Nisha, regardless of this, I still respect you. I couldn't keep working with you nor pretending to work with you, to be exact. I know all of this is stupid and I dug my own grave with that, but that's how I am. I just really like attention, because I was robbed of it my whole life. Go figure~!" She laughs.
"Ahhh, I'm a messy mess. But I won't go down just yet."